"You may see me struggle, but you will never see me quit."
People see me struggle during school, sports and classes. I have moved to four different schools and each time I moved, I struggled fitting in with people. I had trouble focusing on school and I had too much on my mind and nobody to talk to. I had struggled in many classes and it was hard for me to keep my grades up. I felt lonely and worthless and I felt I couldn't do tutoring because I was too afraid to ask teachers. I didn't want to ask students because they made fun of me because the way I looked or dressed.
I went through high and low mountains by myself and I have struggled in school and making friends but one thing I have not done is give up and I had stayed strong even though times got rough. I went through rough times and still haven't gave up and won't because that's one mistake I couldn't take back!
"I don't know my key to success, but failure is trying to please everyone."
This quote means a lot to me. I can relate to it and I tried to make my personality bigger and better but that was not a good idea. I thought by me making everyone happy was my key to success because one of my lifes goals was to make everyone I meet happy; It wasn't a good idea . . .
All I did was let people in and try to help when I did was ruin everything. I made my Dad hate me by trying to help as this past year my parents split up. My Mom got together with someone and they live together. I never leave my room after school as I always just stay away because I feel like I make things worse even when people say I don't.
I get bullied a lot at school too; that makes things worse and I let them in and they leave, bully me, backstab me and ect. So I became distant and I barely talk to anyone. I try but I still mess things up even if I ignore the world! I've failed my confidence in myself, lost faith and trust too; so I stay away hoping it would help out. But staying away, ignoring everyone, saying nothing does not help anything.
I've learned that helping everyone is impossible as it brings you to your breaking point! Making yourself ask where did I go wrong? But I've realized life still goes on and pleasing everyone is hard to do. Just live day by day and hopefully things will get better.
I'll find my key to success one of these days. I know I am a good person and I am here to help, but I can't make everyone happy as much as I want to.